10 months old!!

Kids grow up way too fast! I can not belive my baby is already 10 months old! Pretty soon we will be planning his 1st birthday party!

Peyton can finally crawl!!!!

Peyton is finally crawling! He is the latest at everything for the 3 kids. Hannah was walking by now! He never even rolled over until he was almost 9 months old! But, he is the loudest of the 3 kids, probably because he has to be to be heard over all the noise!
You forget how much work it is when they finally start crawling & pulling themselvs up on things! He is now into EVERYTHING! Today he crawled over to the entertainment center & pulled the DVD player & playstation out, it still works though!

What to do.......

I am having a really hard time deciding if we should have a 4th kid or not, and if so, when. See, Justin really wants to start trying again, but I am just not sure. Part of me really wants 1 more & another part of me is wondering if someone is trying to tell me something. Should I stop now, I have 3 beautiful, healthy kids. Some people never even get 1 healthy baby. The results from the "tissue" testing said we have no problems, just "bad luck". Well, bad luck stinks! What should we do??????

Happy Birthday Justin!

Happy 29th Birthday! I love you!

1st grade!

Hannah started 1st grade last week. She seems to really like it & enjoys being around friends again. She has a male teacher this year & he is really nice, he has been teaching 1st grade for 21 years. It is hard to belive how time flies.

The worst day ever.....

Monday morning the 3 kids & I got ready to go to my 3 month dr appointment, I was 13 weeks 4 days. We were all excited to hear the baby's heartbeat for the 1st time. I got there on time & had all the normal appointment things done, I peed in the cup, I had my blood drawn & joked around with the lady about having another baby so soon. I sat in the waiting room until they called my name & grabbed all 3 kids & headed back to hear our baby, the nurse took down all my information & said she was going to guess I was having a girl (no idea why she thought this) but she left the room & my doctor came in & we joked about how much faster you show with each pregnancy. He gave me my vitamins to bring home & told me to hop up so we can find baby. So I layed on the table, so sure that everything was fine. He took the doppler & moved it around on my belly, he said he couldn't find it but was sure everything was fine since we had an early ultrasound & everything looked really good & it was probably just how I carried my babies. I was not too worried since the same thing had happened when I was pregnant with Peyton. It seemed like forever, but finally there was an ultrasound room open. The nurse gave the kids suckers & they sat in the chairs & Peyton sat happily on the floor playing with toys. The doctor put the gel on my belly and put the mic. thing on my belly and after a few seconds I saw a baby, but I knew something was not right, it wasn't moving, the heartbeat wasn't flickering, my uterus was much bigger than the baby. I started to panic but tried to stay calm since the kids were in there & in case I was overreacting & everything was ok. After what seemed like forever the doctor looked at my & said "I am so sorry, I do not have good news for you, this little person did not make it." I asked the nuses to take the kids in the hallway. The dr looked some more to make sure but he was right, it was gone. I sat up & started to cry & asked him why. He just looked at me sympatheticaly & said "I don't know" he put his hand on my back & said "It will be ok sweetie, you take as much time as you want in here & I will be back to talk to you soon." I sat there a few minutes & cried looking up at the tv screen in the room where my baby had been. After a few minutes he came back in & said he needed to do a D&C in the morning & asked if I was ok to drive home myself & I said yes. All the way out to the car Hannah & B asked why the dr didn't let them hear the baby. I called Justin as soon as I got home & told him & he came home as soon as he could. The rest of the day seems like a blur & I can barely remember what happened or who I talked to. I had no idea, & expected to leave that day hearing my new little baby's heartbeat. I felt fine, no cramping, no bleeding, I thought everything was fine. But, it turned out to be a nightmare.

A new little one to love!

We are expecting our 4th child this February! We are very excited! We can not wait to meet him/her. Hannah & I would love a little girl & Justin & Brandon would like another little boy. But, in the end it doesn't matter, as long as he/she is healthy, that is all we really care about.